My utau!! (new version)

Sooooo,
here he is!
my new utau
(I still need to download the programm..)
His name is Fabian

but before i'll tell you more about him, there''s something I eed to tell/confess to you..

I am High sensitive
([link] <-- maybe this will help.. i'm horrible at explaining what high sensitive means..)
and because of that, i think i live a lot inside of my head,
because i'm high sensitive, I'm afraid of a lot of things (some exaples)
1. Being alone, (it freaks me out!)
2. the dark ( I have an EXTREEM fear for darkness)
4. talking to people I don''t know (I afraid that they'll judge me..)
5. ordering food in a restaurant
6. walking down a busy high street on my own
7.talking to people on the phone
8.eating in front of people
9.asking for help in a shop
10.meeting new people
11.being in a big crowd of people with a lot of people i don’t know

and many other things..

I know it's stupid.. and I'm realy embarrassed about it..
Also a lot of people bullied me with it,
they called me weak, and a loser..
cuz when they punched me (like a friendly punch again your sholder, it hurted.. they thought it was weak, and they laughed at me,
even when they gave me a high-five it sometimes hurted..
and they kept calling me weak,

Luckely I had(have) some real good friend who suppotred me, and stood up for me..
but it wasn't enough for me
So, I created Fabian, he was my imaginary Brother,
Who loved me the way I was, And liked the stuff I did

so, whenever I had to walk in a busy street, I did like he holded my hand,
and that he walked with me

Secretly.. I still do this..
I feel so stupid..

Anyway.. he was always there for me,
inside my head
But I felt like I had to do something with him,
so I don't need to hide him in my head anymore,
So carlijn an I started to make an Utau,
And I got a brilliant idea,
I wanted to make Fabian my Utau.
and It was the best thing I ever did
I finaly had the courage to show him to you guys,
and tell about him

I hope you like him as much as I do